It’s official… the 2 of us have now become the 3 of us! Little Miss Rayni Lou made her grand appearance on Thursday January 5th at 12:57 in the afternoon. She weighed 7 pounds and 8 ounces. She was 20 ½ inches long. We all joke that the ½ has come from her really long monkey like toes. It was quite the experience and one that I will never forget. But as time goes on I know that I will forget all the little details that mean so much to me. So in order for me to remember these oh so important details I need to type them out. So please bare with me as I reminisce about the day my life changed for the better:The week that Rayni Lou was born I had been having really high blood pressure and the Dr. was keeping a close eye on me. On January 4th I went back into have it checked and it was still very high. Dr. said that he thinks he needs to start me so that we can keep me and baby healthy and strong. We went out to talk to the nurse to schedule the induction. Zach and I waited while she called the hospital to see when they could fit us in. The nurse came back with asking if tomorrow at 7 a.m. was ok? I looked at Zach and both of us said nothing but then looked at the nurse and shook our heads yes. I couldn’t believe it!!! I was going to meet my sweet baby girl the very next day. After all the trying and waiting to be a mom it was finally about to happen! I had the biggest smile on my face… for once it wasn’t crying! After the nurse got back on the phone with the hospital to work out the details I looked back over at Zach and I could tell that he was thinking the same thing that he was going to finally be a daddy and see his sweet baby girl. But instead of a big smile on his face his eyes welled up with tears. This is one moment that I don’t think I will ever forget because it was at that moment that I knew I had made the right decision in who I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. Yes a marriage is about the husband and the wife but most importantly it is about being parents to celestial beings-heavenly father’s precious children. When I saw Zach’s eyes well up I knew he was going to be a great daddy! It was a very special moment!
We walked out of the Dr. office in shock. We both got our phones out and started texting all of our family and friends. Everyone was so excited for us and the love and support was overwhelming. I called my mom first and told her she was going to be a grandma tomorrow. Then I called my dad and when he answered the phone the first thing he said was, “am I a grandpa?” I said, “No but tomorrow you will!” he said, “What? I was just joking! How exciting!” the phone calls and texts continued on for hours. When we got home it was GO mode. We had things that we needed to do before we felt like we were ready. We started straightening up the house and packing. I realized I hadn’t made her car seat cover yet so I started and finished it that night. And all while this was going on I got a little overwhelmed within myself. I had all these doubts and fears that came over me about if I was going to be a good mommy. It was a bit scary and daunting that I was going to be in charge of one of Heavenly Father’s children and that I was going to be held responsible for not only my life but for hers. But I knew that with Heavenly Father’s help I would be ok. After everything was as ready as it was going to be we went to bed. While laying there we said our couple’s prayer. Zach asked if I would say it. I don’t know that I really said anything… I really cried through most of it. Not really able to get any words out. I felt so much gratitude for the fact that we were finally at this moment. And that our lives were going to change forever not for the worst but for the better!
After that blubbery prayer was over we closed our eyes to try and get some sleep. I of course couldn’t… Zach was out like a light. About 1:30 in the morning I started feeling the most pain I had ever felt before. I all the sudden was put into major contraction mode. I at this point had kinda dosed off and was a little groggy when it all started happening so I wasn’t paying attention to how far apart they were at first. Then with the pain I was totally awake about after the 3 contraction. I started timing them and they were about 5 min apart. I tried to stay clam and relaxed to see if they would pass. But they weren’t and there was no going back to sleep. Once they hit about 4 min apart I started poking Zach. Nothing… I poked harder… nothing… then I started pushing his shoulder. With a half awake moan I told him that I think we are going to the hospital earlier then 7e didn’t quite seem to comprehend what I was saying till the next contraction came and my breathing woke him up. I got up to try to go to the bathroom but there was no task I could do without it being interrupted with this pain. I called the hospital and she told me that if they weren’t so strong to try to get some rest before I really had to come in. I told her there was no resting or sleeping they were too painful. So she told me to come in. I got up and thought I was going to be able to jump in the shower. I had thought the night before that maybe I should shower instead of waiting till the morning but I didn’t. Now here I was needing to shower and couldn’t. Zach didn’t understand my need to shower and get ready. He thought I was insane. But I needed to do my hair in order to feel comfortable. I know stupid but I was not going to go with the way I was looking. So instead of getting in shower I held my head over the tub and washed my hair. I then started doing my hair. This whole process took double the time it would have because I had to keep stopping and breathing. Zach stood by my side the entire time. After we were all ready and dressed we got into the car and headed for the hospital. There wasn’t a lot that was said. I think we were both really nervous. The contractions would break our silence and Zach was right there holding my hand telling me to squeeze harder. He kept saying, “Is that the best you can do?” little terd! All I could think about was how close are we to the hospital??? I want this pain to go away!
Well we got to the hospital about 3a.m. They got us all checked in and took me back to get ready. I knew that the thing I was dreading the most was about to happen… the EPIDURAL!!!! For some reason this was the thing that I was most nervous about. When the anesthesiologist came in I was getting really really nervous. He got me all ready and had me sitting on the edge of the bed with the bed all the way raised so my feet were hanging off the end. My legs were shaking uncontrollably. The nurse was standing in front of me but all I could do was look at Zach. He was pulling faces at me to try to make me smile. I think the nurse could sense how nervous I was because she had Zach come and stand in front of me to hold my hands. I also wrapped my dangling feet around one of his legs squeezing as hard as I could. It wasn’t that bad… was uncomfortable but nothing that I had to be so nervous about. Once that happened I was numb. It was the weirdest feeling! I think that that happened around 4. So all we had to do now was wait. We called my parent’s and Zach’s parents around 6. Zach’s mom was the first to arrive. My mom (Grammy Lou), dad (poppy), and my brother (Uncle Ray Ray) were soon to follow. It was calming and relaxing to have my family there. They were very supportive.
When I got to the hospital I was dilated to a 4. In an hour I was a 5. And within 20 minutes I went from a 6 to a 9. I was stuck at a 9 for awhile though. I was starting to feel some pressure. No pain just pressure. Then my nurse, Peggy said that sometimes when you get turned on your side it helps move the baby down. So she moved me on my side and OH BOY!!!!
She moved and was right there in seconds. I went right to a 10 at that point and they called my Dr. The nurse started setting up to help me begin the early trials of pushing while we waited for the Dr. to get there. I was all the sudden very overwhelmed with many emotions… So excited that she was going to be here soon, scared, nervous, and probably every other emotion. With these emotions came my tears. No one really noticed me at first because of the excitement in the room.
Zach was the first to look over at me and see the tears. He quickly moved to my side and gave me a kiss. He didn’t even ask what was wrong. He knew and I’m sure he was feeling the same.
My nurse Peggy was the second to notice. She however did ask what was wrong and if I was feeling pain. I told her that it was just nerves. She also tried to calm me down, which I did when it was time for business. I started pushing and pushing. After about 10 minutes of this my Dr. showed up.
He came in with his normal apparel… jeans and cowboy bootsJ
this is what he always wore. Made us all smile. He got right down to it and was ready to start. He got in his gown and was quickly there to catch this angel. He was very calm through it all telling me to stay with it while I was pushing.
I think that I wouldn’t have minded the pushing so much if it didn’t feel like I was going to pass out. That pressure I was feeling in my head was making it so I was feeling very dizzy. They got a cold cloth for my head and some ice for me to chew on between pushes.
The people that were in the room with me were Zach, his mom, my mom and dad. Zach was holding my leg for me and watching the action. My dad was behind me helping me hold my head up with the pillow while I pushed. My mom was taking some great pics that I will cherish forever. And then about halfway through Zach’s mom was helping hold my head up and coaching me through the pushes while my dad moved to be by Zach’s side incase Zach fainted. They were all there for me and on my team. It was amazing how much love and support we felt in that room.
We had a surprise about half way through. Zach’s sister Andee drove from Oregon to surprise us. She made it with about 15 minutes to spare. It was great to also have her there with us.
Well back to the pushing. Zach thinks I was pushing for about 30-45 minutes. It went really fast until the end. My Dr. kept saying that he thinks the next push is the last one. But this happened about 3 or 4 more times before he finally said the words, “Stop pushing… here she comes” all the sudden there she was on my belly.
My very first thought of her was her eyes. She was so wide eyed and aware. It was a wonderful sight to see her big bright eyes looking up and me and my family. There are no words that can explain the feelings I had when I saw her. It was amazing how she went from a little sperm and egg to this beautiful girl laying on me. I also couldn’t help but think about how amazing it is that babies are delivered the way that they are. It is such a small space that they come from and Heavenly Father planned for the plates in our head to move so that we can fit. However this does not make for the cutest head around. Rayni Lou definitely had a major cone head. But she was still the prettiest thing to me. It was all back to normal by the next day.
Well they took her off to get cleaned up. And did all that fun stuff with daddy. He was definitely very proud and so happy to see her.
He then brought her over to me. I couldn’t contain my emotions. She was so beautiful and she was mine and she was finally here!
After some mommy and me time everyone held her. Soon to come in the room later was Zach’s step dad Ron, his dad Chuck, and Uncle Ray Ray.
Here is a slide show of some more pictures that were taken during all the fun
http://www.kizoa.com/slideshow/d2210446k5329232o1/rayni-lous-birth-story
So as you can see pretty tough and amazing road it took to hold this sweet baby in my arms today. Starting with the trials of trying to have a baby for so long to the delivery. Still facing some challenges of being a new mommy but I know that with the help and support from family, friends, my Father in Heaven, and my amazing Hubbie it will be possible!
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