My 1 Year Old

I turned around, blinked an eye, took a breath... and all the sudden I had a 1 year old. My fear of everything gong too fast was realized the night before Rayni turned 1.

 I started thinking almost every hour where I was at that time 1 year ago. I woke up with massive swollen ankles. My mom said that I should call the Dr because she feared it was pre-eclampsia, because I really hadn't had swollen ankles the entire time I was pregnant. I called the Dr. when I got to work. They told me that they wanted to see me as soon as possible. I was able to make an appointment 2. Called my hubbie and told him to meet me there. I said goodbye to my class and my aid not knowing that that was the last time I was going to be seeing them for 6 weeks. I met my hubbie at the Dr's office. We were both a bit nervous because of the complications we had had getting pregnant. They took us back. I took a urine test, he checked how far along I was. The protein in my urine was high enough to cause some concern. He said that he would want to start me this week. They called the hospital to see when they could fit me in. The nurse then looked at us and said, "How about 7 tomorrow morning?" I looked at Zach and gasped. His eyes filled up with tears. I couldn't speak I just shook my head yes. I couldn't believe that I was going to be meeting my little girl the very next day. We made the arrangements. Zach and I walked out of the office saying nothing to each other kissed each other goodbye. Got in our cars and drove home. We made calls to family members to let them know. Every one was so excited for us. That night was strange. I felt a bit overwhelmed that I wasn't ready. I mean I felt ready to meet her, but my house didn't feel ready. Zach and I didn't talk much, I think we were just in shock. I got her carseat cover done, cleaned up a bit, packed my bag, and then we went to bed.
At 1 in the morning I woke up with major pain, I think I slept through it for awhile but was still feeling the pain while half was asleep, but then I woke up completely and realized I was having contractions. I woke Zach up and said, "I think we are going to be at the hospital before 7, Im having contractions!" We got up, got out the door, made to the hospital. My parents and Zach's parents got there around 8 ish. And we met the light of our lives at 12:57 on January 5th 2012. The moment that I saw her big beautiful eyes was a moment that I will never forget. I will never forget when her daddy brought her over to me and I kissed her sweet face for the first time.

This past year has been filled with so many tender moments and sweet memories that I don't want to ever forget. I want to hang onto them for as long as I can and not forget a single detail. I can't believe that this past year has slipped away so quickly! It is amazing how time really does fly. The night before her Birthday all of that was going through my head. When I woke up and went in to get my baby out of her crib I started whispering happy birthday to her. I had tears in my eyes as I held her tightly. She kept looking up at me with a smily confused look. I was sad that she was so old but so grateful that I have been so blessed this past year.
My very talented mama took some fabulous 1 year pics of our sassy little 1 year old

 

well we had a big bday bash for our little peanut. The theme was,

Look WHOO'S Turning 1

 

She had so much fun, was such a sweet girl all day, loved all her family and friends being there, and we loved seeing her so happy.

Here are some fun pics of the day:

 

 

It was this time last year I was so so nervous! My life was about to change forever. I couldn't help but be scared about the unknown, but I couldn't wait to meet my sweet little girl. You make me want to be a better person, you make me smile, you make me so grateful, you make me crazy at times, but you make me love more than I ever thought imaginable. Happy birthday my Lou Lou bear! I love you so much!